Well, it is my last night in Madrid. The program technically ended today, and we were supposed to leave this morning, but I didn't take the group flight and my flight doesn't leave until tomorrow morning. So since my roommate's been gone since 4am I've had the entire day to myself. It wasn't necessarily good though.

So my senora did me this 'favor' of letting me stay longer, but not without a price...I woke up to overhearing her on the phone (she's VERY loud on the phone) saying how she didn't really care that I was staying, but she sure as hell wasn't feeding me. FYI, it's still May 1st (the date the program ends) and I think that technically she is OBLIGATED to feed me on May 1st. But whatever, I didn't push it. I also got up and she said "Jacquelyn didn't tell me she broke her lamp..." and I was like "oh I didn't know she broke it." And she was like "Yes you did and you should have told me." Ok, I DID know, but she doesn't know that! She's in bed now and I said goodbye and we made piece. I wish her nothing but the best...it is hard to live with certain people and I guess we clashed...I honestly think it was just entirely too much estrogen...I hope everything turns out well with her.

Anyway, I had a nice day by myself visiting the spots I consider 'my spots' that I wanted to see, etc. My dinner was a little sad though. Everything's closed because it's the equivalent of labor day today, so I had very limited options....I ate at McDonald's!!! I hadn't eaten at a McDonald's in YEARS! It was so strange! (though delicious...) It was interesting being in the city center today (Sol) because tomorrow is the bicentennial of when Napoleon invaded Madrid and marched his army right into Puerta del Sol! (May 2nd, 1808) So there are grand festivities planned. The streets were PACKED.

How I'm feeling about leaving: I recognize that this is the end of this point in my life. I don't necessarily want it to be the end but...it is. And I'm not that sad. I just feel a little uprooted. Like, I love my bus routes, I love the metro, I love the culture and everything I've learned. I love just LIVING in Europe! It was an amazing experience and I think it's helped form who I am now. But when everyone else was moaning and groaning about how sad they were to leave I...had no tears. I'm not a crier to being with, but I'm really not that sad because I recognize that this part of my life is over, and I have So much to look forward to! I'm excited about my internship this summer, I'm excited about my classes this fall, and I'm excited about seeing my family and Ed again. I missed them A LOT. I think that DOES have to do with why I'm not sad to be leaving...I really really missed Ed. I wasn't lonely most of the time, but...I love him in my life, and I would just prefer it that way. In any case, I'm just so lucky that I have been able to do this and I'm lucky I do have a lot to go home to.

I am sad that this will not be my home anymore...I loved it being my home...but....so what? Life has 'sads' and 'happys' and that's just the way it is! I'll get over it!

My last two nights, where we partied hard, I'll chronicle later...I don't feel like it now. Plus I have to finish packing. LAST BLOG FROM SPAIN!
ADIOS!